Spaces that were once safe

[amul]

I found out the other day that someone I thought was a friend has been propagating a reputation I haven't deserved for nearly two years now.

I feel like I should be old enough, wise enough, cynical enough to shrug my shoulders and remind myself that reputations are hard to move past.

Instead, I feel myself scapegoating all the anger and betrayal I feel in other parts of my life, redirecting all my impotent negative energy at this person, if only because I could handle losing his friendship, if only because it is a source of pain that I could terminate quickly, easily.

Seriously, dude? It's been two years since I did shit like that!

Comments

[gailmom.livejournal.com]

I think you know I don't condone rumors. I do feel the need to ask this, but know that it is in NO WAY defending the actions of this person, ok? :)

Two years feels like a long time, but it really isn't. Is it possible this person was simply unaware of your changes and did not know the information being shared/spread was no longer applicable?

Either way it sucks you are having to deal with this. :(

~hugs~

[amul.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the support. It means a lot.

Now go to bed! It's an hour and a half past your bedtime. If i'dknown you were staying up this late, I would have called to brag about the news I emailed you about an hour ago.

[gailmom.livejournal.com]

There was a munch! I only got home an hour ago and needed to wind down from being talky to being sleepy.

I'm going now. :)

[amul.livejournal.com]

Oh, I see. You'll stay up for a munch but not for me. ~sniff, snort~ I see how it is.

[gailmom.livejournal.com]

0.o

I can't tell if you are joking.

Are you joking?

Please tell me you are teasing and not serious.

0.0

[amul.livejournal.com]

Of course I'm joking.

[gailmom.livejournal.com]

~relieved sigh~ ok, good.