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Thoughts, ShibariCon
4 June 2011 14:56http://www.elephantjournal.com/2011/06/why-being-broken-in-a-pile-on-your-bedroom-floor-is-a-good-idea--julie-jc-peters/
Still trying to find the time to reflect on ShibariCon. This was forwarded to me by (Formerly) Achingly Defiant, and I thank the gods for ex-girlfriends.
I'll write of at least one ShibariCon-based epiphany that I had, concerning Mirage:
It's not that she was The One That I've Been Waiting For, it's just that she was the first girl in my entire life with whom I finally felt like I could be fallible in front of. I gave her a type of virginity that I didn't even know I still had in me, and the reason I've been struggling so much to get over the pain of our breakup is simply this:
I'm a heartbroken, recently deflowered virgin.
Of course this hurts. I waited thirty five years for someone I could trust like that.
Still trying to find the time to reflect on ShibariCon. This was forwarded to me by (Formerly) Achingly Defiant, and I thank the gods for ex-girlfriends.
I'll write of at least one ShibariCon-based epiphany that I had, concerning Mirage:
It's not that she was The One That I've Been Waiting For, it's just that she was the first girl in my entire life with whom I finally felt like I could be fallible in front of. I gave her a type of virginity that I didn't even know I still had in me, and the reason I've been struggling so much to get over the pain of our breakup is simply this:
I'm a heartbroken, recently deflowered virgin.
Of course this hurts. I waited thirty five years for someone I could trust like that.
I'm having one of those days where I have too many thoughts to be able to think any one of them all the way through, and so they rattle in my head and bounce against each other, tangling and interweaving until I can no longer tell where each one even begins, let alone ends, and the longer they stay inside the more terrified I become of trying to express any bit of it, utterly convinced that I'll say it wrong, that I'll say a piece of one thing while talking about the other and it'll get completely confused and I'll be judged, I'll be punished for not knowing what I'm trying to say and so I cover my nose and hide behind these lyrics because sometimes old words can gain new meaning and if it isn't expressing myself, exactly, at least it is depressurizing my head.
Emphasis Mine.
( Talking Heads to the rescue )
Emphasis Mine.
( Talking Heads to the rescue )
Lyrics post
11 May 2010 11:27Just 'cuz I heard from the first girl I ever sang this about, and then read a poem written by the girl I sing this for now.
( Read more... )
( Read more... )
"Future Love Paradise" by Seal.
I <3 Seal. He's like my new Barry White, or something. He just makes me feel good.
Lyrics behind the cut. Emphasis mine.
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I <3 Seal. He's like my new Barry White, or something. He just makes me feel good.
Lyrics behind the cut. Emphasis mine.
( Read more... )
Other People's Words
1 August 2009 04:34Drunk.
Hiding behind lyrics.
( I'm So Tired )
A girl at the party tonight said, "I read that Red Eye article. Do you only do relationships, or do you have casual sex as well?"
*grumble* I am getting pretty tired of being a slut. I'm not saying it's something I'm planning on giving up forever, just that I'm spending a lot of time and energy on that end of things and not nearly enough on crunchy relationship-y things, like watching movies with someone, or going cooking meals together.
Hiding behind lyrics.
( I'm So Tired )
A girl at the party tonight said, "I read that Red Eye article. Do you only do relationships, or do you have casual sex as well?"
*grumble* I am getting pretty tired of being a slut. I'm not saying it's something I'm planning on giving up forever, just that I'm spending a lot of time and energy on that end of things and not nearly enough on crunchy relationship-y things, like watching movies with someone, or going cooking meals together.
Overwhelmed
8 July 2009 16:13I spent some time hanging out with Princess Dragonbait last night.
Instead of trying to say more about how that went, I'm going to hide behind this giant chunk of lyrics until my heart stops spinning. Emphasis Mine.
( Cowboy Junkies - Ring on the Sill )
Instead of trying to say more about how that went, I'm going to hide behind this giant chunk of lyrics until my heart stops spinning. Emphasis Mine.
( Cowboy Junkies - Ring on the Sill )
There's this thick fog in the air tonight, crisp, cool and damp. You can almost smell the life inside the trees waiting for their moment, curled inside the branches, waiting to leap out....to spring.
It is, quite simply, perfect weather to sit on the shore of Lake Michigan, chain smoke cheap cigarettes, brood over my life, and listen to Concrete Blonde.
Emphasis Mine. I Don't Need A Hero by Concrete Blonde
( lyrics )
What's funny is that I discovered Concrete Blonde while looking for a completely different kind of music, those many years ago. There was this silly TV show about this guy who is a fashion photographer during the day and a crime fighter at night. The theme song was Holding Out For A Hero by Bonnie Tyler.
In more ways than I can ever fully express, finding Concrete Blonde instead of Bonnie Tyler shaped my life.
It is, quite simply, perfect weather to sit on the shore of Lake Michigan, chain smoke cheap cigarettes, brood over my life, and listen to Concrete Blonde.
Emphasis Mine. I Don't Need A Hero by Concrete Blonde
( lyrics )
What's funny is that I discovered Concrete Blonde while looking for a completely different kind of music, those many years ago. There was this silly TV show about this guy who is a fashion photographer during the day and a crime fighter at night. The theme song was Holding Out For A Hero by Bonnie Tyler.
In more ways than I can ever fully express, finding Concrete Blonde instead of Bonnie Tyler shaped my life.
Image: a woman clad in white priestess raiment, standing on a concert-hall speaker like it was a pedestal. She wears a crown of ivy, her hands are raised in tempting promise.
( Downhill Racer, by EBtG )
( Downhill Racer, by EBtG )
