Stitching wounds shut
31 July 2008 00:21It's become this kind of secret handshake. I can tell just by looking at people. One of us, that looks says to me.
So you make the approach. You know better than to rush the story out of them. It's not about letting me hear it. It's about letting them say it over and over again until it is finally real.
Sometimes, it's not enough to nudge. You have to acknowledge the bond you share out loud, and let them know that you're aware of the price that comes with knowing. Let them know you'll take their confession. That you'll hold the sleeve back while they try to work out a little more of the puss.
I used to think, having been the one who left, that I could only really be there for the ones who also did the leaving. Eventually, I realized that I could be there for the ones who got left, too. It isn't about which side of the decision you were on, it's about how it hit you.
It's about that particular sense of loss.
In a way, I think that was something I only recently finished learning.
This time, when she was finished talking, there were a few details that she needed me to prod her on.
In the end, I said to this stranger, this woman I've talked to only a handful of times, I'll stop by on Friday and make sure you sign them. We can put it in the mail together, and then go to a concert.
As I say it, I remember a woman telling me, "You should be sorry. You should do penance." I remember telling her, I am. I do.
So you make the approach. You know better than to rush the story out of them. It's not about letting me hear it. It's about letting them say it over and over again until it is finally real.
Sometimes, it's not enough to nudge. You have to acknowledge the bond you share out loud, and let them know that you're aware of the price that comes with knowing. Let them know you'll take their confession. That you'll hold the sleeve back while they try to work out a little more of the puss.
I used to think, having been the one who left, that I could only really be there for the ones who also did the leaving. Eventually, I realized that I could be there for the ones who got left, too. It isn't about which side of the decision you were on, it's about how it hit you.
It's about that particular sense of loss.
In a way, I think that was something I only recently finished learning.
This time, when she was finished talking, there were a few details that she needed me to prod her on.
In the end, I said to this stranger, this woman I've talked to only a handful of times, I'll stop by on Friday and make sure you sign them. We can put it in the mail together, and then go to a concert.
As I say it, I remember a woman telling me, "You should be sorry. You should do penance." I remember telling her, I am. I do.