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12 August 2005 03:35Somewhere in the course of the last two weeks, I seem to have turned into a pack-and-a-half/day smoker. Ugh.
12 August 2005
Somewhere in the course of the last two weeks, I seem to have turned into a pack-and-a-half/day smoker. Ugh.
Hung out with Comfortingly Bouncy last night and my jaw is still sore from all the laughter and smiling. When I hang out with her, time doesn't fly. Instead, Time puts on a black ninja-catsuit and climbs spires and leaps from building to building. Time sneaks past guards and avoids all the traffic lights and toll booths.
Time puts on it's slippers and knows where all the creaky floorboards are.
Time creeps up behind all my thugs, knocks them out with it's baton, and dumps them in dark corners. Time disables my security cameras without sounding the alarm. Time saves all its ammo for the final boss.
Time moves at the same pace it always does, it doesn't fall through my clutching fingers, it doesn't stretch each moment into eternity. Time moves at the same pace it always does, only sneaky. I don't even notice that I've lost track of it.
Maybe CB is secretly allied with Time, they're partners in crime and they split everything 50/50, straight down the middle. They're in cahoots, I'm sure of it, and they mean to steal away all my frantic need to become more, to accomplish everything immediately.
I can picture her, deep inside the swampy jungle of my self-depreciation, slipping past the ancient traps I left inside the temple I raised long ago in honor of the Ideal Self. I can picture her. She stands before the golden icon of All I Want To Become, and measures the weight of a bag of sand.
You can't....can't negotiate for an evening like yesterday's. You can't plan for it, or seek it out. You can't rehearse it in your head so that it'll play out just as you imagine. That's something I've tried explaining to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
hny2k. Friendships are best when they just happen.
So, of course, it was hours later than I expected to be home by. Even though I had already packed everything, had gone shopping for my trip the day before. Once again, I'm hours behind schedule. No rest stop pinball for me.
Friendships are best when they just happen, though there are too many people with whom I ache to have the same kind of moments with.
*sigh* There is so much to do, and be, and see! Everywhere I look, there are things to look at.
I am so Very Fond of this life I've found.
Forged.
Embraced.
Time puts on it's slippers and knows where all the creaky floorboards are.
Time creeps up behind all my thugs, knocks them out with it's baton, and dumps them in dark corners. Time disables my security cameras without sounding the alarm. Time saves all its ammo for the final boss.
Time moves at the same pace it always does, it doesn't fall through my clutching fingers, it doesn't stretch each moment into eternity. Time moves at the same pace it always does, only sneaky. I don't even notice that I've lost track of it.
Maybe CB is secretly allied with Time, they're partners in crime and they split everything 50/50, straight down the middle. They're in cahoots, I'm sure of it, and they mean to steal away all my frantic need to become more, to accomplish everything immediately.
I can picture her, deep inside the swampy jungle of my self-depreciation, slipping past the ancient traps I left inside the temple I raised long ago in honor of the Ideal Self. I can picture her. She stands before the golden icon of All I Want To Become, and measures the weight of a bag of sand.
You can't....can't negotiate for an evening like yesterday's. You can't plan for it, or seek it out. You can't rehearse it in your head so that it'll play out just as you imagine. That's something I've tried explaining to
hny2k. Friendships are best when they just happen.So, of course, it was hours later than I expected to be home by. Even though I had already packed everything, had gone shopping for my trip the day before. Once again, I'm hours behind schedule. No rest stop pinball for me.
Friendships are best when they just happen, though there are too many people with whom I ache to have the same kind of moments with.
*sigh* There is so much to do, and be, and see! Everywhere I look, there are things to look at.
I am so Very Fond of this life I've found.
Forged.
Embraced.
